ok
its 3,41 now and i still on ... which is to mean .. i cant sleep!!! lol

anyway ... today was rather ok .. finally went to band after not going for so many weeks... and i totally sucked at it ... i am really losing it ... like damn ... and this is the worse band prac i had in my entire band life !!!! geee!!! omg !!!

i seriously don know wats wrong with me... i cant even play a proper 6,8 time bar... geee!!! i sure suck!!! i need to buck up !!! tmr another band session ... but with NV ... hope that i will not screw things up like how i did today ... anyway .. i was suppose to play 2nd and have already practiced some piece relatively well wit the 2nd part... and nw i heard that i will have to cover the 3rd part due to some reason ... like i have get it all up within 4 pracs!!! how !!!

i have nv before be so stressed over concert ! maybe i didnt prac thats y ....
anyway ....
NIE public perf is at 19 aug (like damn it.. so near to finals!)
NVASB concert is somewhere in sept !!!

i am going nuts... anyway .. til then i am off ... got to sleep ... band day tmr !!!